Toll Booth Jesus.

What is $.75?

To a infant it is another thing to make reference in this new world. Another piece to catalog.To a six year old it is 14 Now-N-Laters in all assorted goodness.To a 12 year old it is a temporary tattoo out of the stand alone vendor… A new statement with out words.To a 18 year old it is an annoying jingle in the bottom of their pocket…Do you know how much change is in the bottom of your bag?

To me… It is my savior.
It has become the only thing connecting me to the rest of humanity… keeping things, experiences, feelings, in perspective.I drive 45 minutes to work every day, preoccupying my thoughts… Listening to the radio, my home made play lists, books on tape, a conversation on talk radio… and when I shut all that out in floods thought… It is almost over whelming…So the last couple nights I drive completely silent…And thought creeps it's way back…we all know we are trained to hate to be alone with them.I am driving up to that dreaded toll again… It really is an inconvenience. It wastes time, money, causes frustration…I have to turn my radio off…God forbid.
I reach the toll with a slight sound track to my day…
Our Lady Peace- Blister… The lyrics are more than I could ever say about how I was feeling… ***So I left them at the bottom of this confession.

I am in line waiting… the 3rd car… Always waiting…" The world's a blister and I'm Okay with it."And that is when 3 quarters saved me. I reach the toll booth with this amazing realization, the catalog and reference that I do daily all made this moment make sense… I said to my saint," can I pay for the person behind me?"She took my offering… $1.25, and any anger, frustration, depression, ego mending thoughts I had… Gone… all gone… You know why it is the perfect savior… We all forgot how happy little things of no value made us, so grateful.

Every one hates toll booths…The INCONVIENECE. The stop in your day… I think this is when you should remember the world is only your perception of it… Take your obstacles, your depression, your anger, your ego mending, your inconvenience…and make them your savior.

"So instead of fighting each otherWe should help each other through the dayBe a miracle to some oneEven if you know them notYou never know a blessingUntil its all you've got." – Chris Green

***OUR LADY PEACE- BLISTER
Lately I can't breathe
Waiting they're chasing me
No one listens but I'm ok with it
Only I wonder whyIf only my hands weren't tied
The world's a blister
But I'm ok with it
What if I was there
What if I was scared
I'm waiting for...They're at my door
But I'll be back again
Lonely, I'm wandering
Patrolling for enemies
No one listens but I'm ok with it